A LETTER TO MYSELF

 DEAR ME,

      Hey, how are you? How are you holding up? I know we haven’t spoken for a long while and I’m sorry about that. I miss you, I miss the beautiful conversations we have, I miss seeing your real smile, I miss who you used to be when I knew you; when I loved you.

   I know that I’ve neglected you and words can’t describe how extremely apologetic I am but I’m here now. I’m here to give you the love that you deserve… I won’t ever let you feel like you’re alone in this world anymore. You’re beautiful. Despite what you’ve been through, you’re the strongest person I know and I promise to always remind you that you’re worth it; you’re worth every good thing in this world.

   I saw it all, I won’t lie. I saw when you crushed your face to your pillow to muffle the sound of your cries. I saw when you couldn’t defend yourself in a situation you shouldn’t even have been in. I saw when everyone labeled you the bad person so you started to believe it too. I’m sorry I wasn’t there to support you. I wasn’t there to tell you that it wasn’t your fault; that we all make foolish mistakes; that it isn’t the end of the world. 

   Do you know my biggest regrets? Leaving you at your lowest, not loving you enough to get you through it and not keeping my word to protect you from everything including yourself. YOU ARE STRONG. If no-one believes that, I do and I want you to believe that too. Just so you know, you are more than a pretty face, more than a quick lay, more than a disposable friend and more than a fragile being. I’ve seen you fight battles that nobody would ever think you’ll get out alive but you survived.

   I know you think that this is an apology letter from me to you but it’s more than that. It’s basically me assuring you that I’d never abandon you again. You’re all I got and I’m all you got. I would cherish your heart, your soul, your body, your mind. I would make you believe that love truly exists and you can get it from ME and that’s all that matters. I don’t want to break your heart anymore.

   So my dear self, don’t stop living. Don’t stop chasing your happiness. Don’t stop being YOU. You are unique, don’t doubt that. Even if nobody understands you, I always do and that is all that matters…

God LOVES you…

                                              With love,

                                               Me.