𝗜 𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗬 𝗙𝗨𝗖𝗞𝗘𝗗 𝗨𝗣

 "If you don’t open your phone right now, we're over. “ My boyfriend, Michael says to me. Scared is too little a word to describe how I feel right now. I have two options; don't give him my phone and risk losing my boyfriend or give him the phone and still risk losing him. I'm caught between a rock and a hard place. Either way I'm fucked. I can't even think of a way to escape this situation.

“Wait first babe, I can explain.” I try to salvage the situation.

“Lillian just give me the phone first then you can explain later.” I can tell that he's losing patience already. I don't want him to leave me but nothing can change what I've done.

I unlock my phone and hurriedly go through the messages that Gozie and I exchanged two days ago looking for any incriminating message to delete and I realise how plenty they are. I curse myself internally do forgetting to delete the chat and I know nothing I do or say would save me at this point. I hand over my phone to Mike. 

“So you slept with Gozie?” He asks me as he goes through the WhatsApp messages and at this very moment I just know that my relationship is hanging by a thread.

“I swear babe, nothing like that occurred. It's...” I try to deny but he cuts me off before I could finish.

“Shut the fuck up guy. Your chat with him is enough confirmation that you guys fucked. Don't you even dare lie to me.” He shakes his head at me like he can't believe this situation is happening. I'm on the verge of tears trying to think of something, anything to save us.

I fucked up badly, I know. I fucked up in more ways than one. I knew the events happening these past few weeks would eventually lead to this but I just couldn't stop. Regret sits heavily in my heart. 

“I'm not lying I swear. We didn't do anything. I don't see Gozie that way. It's just random talk. You know me Mike, it's just harmless flirting. It didn't mean anything I'm serious.” I stick to lying and denying it because I'm too embarrassed to actually admit to cheating on my boyfriend with his bestfriend and I can't bear to grasp the fact that I'm breaking the heart of the boy I genuinely love.

“It's the fact that you're still lying that's pissing me off. Guy I know Gozie very well. He’d never text a girl ‘I’m horny’ unless he's fucked her before.” Mike's body quakes with anger.

“You know what? I can't deal with you right now. Since you don't want to tell me the truth, I'll confront Gozie about it.” He takes a step to leave my room but I grab his arm before he does.

“Okay fine, let me say the truth. We just kissed but I swear we didn't go that far. I was so high and we both vowed never to bring it up again. We were both very high. Believe me Mike.” I burst into tears. I would do anything at this point, anything at all to save my already failed relationship even if it's to lie to death. I can't bring myself to confess that I actually slept with Gozie. Mike just stares down at me with contempt.

“I can't believe you actually did this to me. You're disgusting Lilian.” He spits out and walks away from me.

My chest hurts and there's no bigger realization than the fact that I've lost the love and affection of the only boy I've ever loved because I was too selfish with my temporary pleasures.